It took me ore days than exected to stop feeling ill. But now I have completely got over it and feel energetic and smiley. It makes me realise that even before last Friday’s crise, in fact since the operation, I have not been feeling right. Unfortunately one of the side effects of no longer taking these painkillers is that I have recovered my appetite… Also I feel more pain, but as the doctor said, this is probably a good thing as now I am starting to gently put some weight on the left side, I get warning signs if I do too much. (Unfortunately these are often several hours later. (Ive just been ling flat on my back for an hour to get rid of pain caused by yesterday’s physio session.)
Anyhow it is gloriously sunny – back to summer weather – and, as the French say, ‘j’ai le morale’. Just as well as Debora is now gong through a black patch and it is up to me to make her laugh.
YesterdayI dragged her out to the garden where all the old dears from the retirement home sit. This is not easy as – incredibly- there is an unmanageable slope between the hospital exit and the path down to the garden. I have still not dared try it unassisted. We sat there, surrounded by smokers and a weird man in a wheelchair oblivious to the world around him. ‘What do we do?’ cried Deborah. ‘No problem,’ I replied, we just wait for the first handsome young man to pass – well, at least young…” It’s a bit like hitching, I explained, you have to scrutinise the passers-by to check if they are suitable before making eye contact. We turned down a couple of offers on the grounds they were too old, and then at last waylayed a young man on his way to visit his girlfriend.
It was worth it: it was the first time that Deborah had been outside and she really enjoyed it. Until her leg started hurting too much. I ws surprised that she was quite shocked when I stopped another man, on his way to visit his parents in the retirement home, and asked him to push Deborah’s chair up the slope first. She said today that she is surprised at how anxious she has become since her accident, especially since she has ridden and skied all her life.